My sad side

well..i dont know how to express my sadness and my anger towards my uncle who created a huge havoc recently which really made me fall down from the pride. I was crying for the past 2 days like hell but never showed my self to others. Cause i didnt want others too now about my feelings so i was as usual making jokes and cheering up others in front of them but at the back i was totally hopeless towards my self as i spend hours sitting at the field near my house at 11pm at night till the next morning 4am thinking about the problems i have..I cant tell it to anyone cause its hard even there are many close frns and good frens who are always ready to help..I didnt want my parents to know what my uncle did cause it will really hurt my parents feeling..Im done with this..Dont know how long i could take it anymore..Well i dont even now that wether i should post this or not but i cant take it anymore thats why…Trust me..Im just a normal humble person and i have never ever said something bad or think bad about someone neither think for myself only..Most of the time i always think about all my family members..even if i dont get it, i always make sure others get it and they are always happy…But at the end of the day,..this is what i get…U r a cheater,liar,u r good for nothing,and all negative thoughts on me…well i say thanks 4 everything…One day u will know the truth and how much i care about others as i can strongly say that no one cares,and even cries as much as i do perday…Its just painfull when i hear people say like this nor scold me..Im in tears…….Thanks for reading…I apreciate it…Hope u all have a joyfull holiday….ARWIN JOHN